Saturday, March 23, 2013

You Can't Just Wait!

Better to love God and die unknown than to love the world and be a hero; better to be content with poverty than to die a slave to wealth; better to have taken some risks and lost than to have done nothing and succeeded at it. -erwin lutzer

Please note the above quote is exactly how I feel. You either like it or you don't, but when it comes to mine and my families life, your opinion really doesn't count. That is my rant and now I will move on.

I would like to really talk about the last part of what Erwin Lutzer says "Better to have taken some risks and lost then to have done nothing and succeeded at it."
As the days go on the more that sentence makes sense to me. I'm at the point in my life where waiting is no longer an option!!! Why are we waiting for the world to fix itself? If we don't get out of our comfortable lil seats (oh yes you) and start making change, then change is never going to happen.

Failure you may say. Meh. Atleast you failed trying. Atleast you can say you took the risk, it's probably more than most people can say.

Maybe you don't know where to start. Well everyone had to start somewhere, it doesnt mean they knew where they were starting either, but God led the way. It's okay to follow someone else's lead. It's okay to partner with someone else. You never know where you might be led to.

You may think the problem is too big so why bother. How about instead of looking at the big problem we start with a small problem and go from there.

I could sit here all night and give you a list of things that can changed. While in Haiti, I saw many opportunities for change. In our own communities I see opportunities for change.  I see opportunities for HOPE!

I know there are people all over the world who are local and international that could give you opportunities.

We can't just wait anymore. Waiting can take a long time, and no one knows for sure how much time we have.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

A New Beginning

I have been home from Haiti for 4 days and I am already counting the days till I can go back. Though I don't know the dates I know I will be returning this year again. As much as I would love to sit here and write about my trip, I can't you. You would never see the emotions that I feel and the love that I have for that country. What I am here to do is ask for you help.

During my trip to Haiti it became very clear to me that I was called to be a missionary. I had thought about it before the trip and thought I could do that, but after being on a missions trip I KNOW I could that. Am I going to tell you that I am about to pack up my family and move to a different country, No not yet. But if that's where God leads us then, then so be it.

What I am about to tell you is I am becoming a Missionary with Boaz Ministries. (Check it out!)
As a missionary I will be serving locally and abroad, but it also means that I will be living by Faith. Which means unless I raise my salary, I do not get paid.

So here is where you can help. I am looking for people to donate financially every month to help me do what God is calling me to do. You could donate $20, $50, $100 or any amount that you can give. All amounts will be muchly appreciated.

If you cannot donate financially, that's okay to. Maybe you can commit to praying for me and that I receive the support I need.

Share this blog with everyone know, maybe someone I don't know would love to help me out.

Come Monday morning,my new journey begins and I would love all the support and love that I can get.

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Saturday, March 2, 2013

Haiti 2013

Share each other’s burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ. Galatians 6:2

In just two sleeps, I will be on my way to Haiti for my very first missions trip. At first as the days went on I felt no excitement whatsoever. I felt fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of the things I will see. Fear of how I am going to return home. Fear that my heart won't be able to bear what I will feel.

Now I feel excitement! I, YES, I am going to go and experience a new culture, a new way of life and a new understanding of what we as rich people (yes, you! Chances are you are reading this on your computer or phone that YOU own,which makes you rich) need to do to help this hurting world.

God has given me a passion to go and help people. First he started me off with something "simple" some people would say. He sent me to a street where I knew no one, not even the volunteers and had me help these families. He also taught me so many things in the process of going to this street. He taught me that I don't have to go to a different country to help, I literally can drive 20 minutes into the city and find people with all sorts of needs. He also taught me that I am not there just to help them, I am there to share their burdens with them, to become their friend, become their family. And that's exactly what we are now, we are a family.

Fast forward 6 months and I am preparing to head to Haiti. During these past 6 months, I felt alot of pain and anger towards this place I live in. I would look around and become frustrated with people. I would wonder why we have people in our community who need help and yet we go about our everyday lives like there is nothing wrong. There were days where I was ready to pack up my family, sell everything that we had and move to a country that needed help. I would think if people don't want to help, I'll go do it myself. I would read about things that people don't even want to know about because well it's easier to not know or ignore. Then I would become even angerier.Then I would cry. Cry to Lord.

Then one day, I was at a womens event. Did I want to go? No, I was angry, I didn't want to be anywhere except in my room at home reading more and more about this world and how it needs our help. But I felt a tug that morning telling me I had to go. So I went. I wouldn't say the message was for me, but it was definetly something I needed to hear. That day I went to the altar and I prayed "God please. I cannot do this on my own. I am angry, I am in pain. God something needs to be done. I am only one person. But maybe with a few more people we can do a lot more. I want change, I need change."

Well here we are today, a group of ten of us are preparing to head to Haiti to help change the lives of others that we don't even know yet. So here I go again, starting over. Going to place where I know no one,only a few of the team members. But Im going to place where lives will be change. I will make new friends. My heart will probably break into a million little pieces, but that's okay because it will only strengthen me and prepare me to do more in my return home. I believe Haiti is the beginning of something new. A new challenge maybe? I guess we'll have to wait and see.

Pray for our team. Pray for the people of Haiti. Pray for changed lives and new beginnings.